Fall Semester 2011

In two weeks, the semester of Fall 2011 would be coming to an end, furthermore, the last day of class is on the Friday, the 16 of December and exam week is on the week of December 19, 2011. At this rate, I am feeling both anxious, excited, nervous, and scared all at the same time. I am feeling anxious to know my grades in my classes, excited that the semester is coming to an end, nervous about how I could make the exams, and scared that I may fail a class. On the other hand, if I had review this semester, it may seem to be a somewhat-easy-slacking semester. There is a class specifically that I slacked off in, and it was Computer Science.

Computer Science, I love making codes on programs, but am not too certain how to do it. I don't get too much of a good grade on my quizzes too often and ended up with a C as my mid-term. Meanwhile my other three classes, I have all Bs. As said in my previous post about my Mid-Term grades, Computer Science seem to be the only difficult class, however, Calculus had taken over its role. I had just recently printed out the exact slide shows he uses for the class lecture.

Now that we are learning about geometry, which I was never good at it in high school, and doubt I will be good at it now. To me, it is only thing that is pulling me down in Calculus, so before the final exam of Calculus, I planned to first make my cheat sheet, which only involves formulas from the chapters we learn, he allowed us to have on exam day. And then study more on the geometry rather than the algebraic calculation. I am also confident with derivatives, so I doubted I would have to study on this aspect. When I count down from the hardest to the easiest, History comes to mind.

History, I have to study all of the key terms again, which I doubt I had forgotten. History, since first grade from the most vague description, I have still remember it till today. I am okay with the history that involves the the founding of America to the Civil War. And since the professor had already given all the students the essay exams we were expected to see, it makes me even more confident. Then I could beforehand write an essay involving the situation, which could result in me already answering the question to the essay. And I don't mean to say all these class are hardest from what I rate, but the English's exam will seem to be the easiest.

To me, our synthesis paper is the exam itself. And since it seems like a take home exam, I can write freely when I wish, rather than the two hour time the UW system has given us. Though it may seem like a 8+ pages essay, I find it rather simple. I elaborate a lot in my papers and when there is a maximum and minimum pages of paper, I have to cut down what I wish to write. All my essay, if I don't need to cut down on what I write, my pages of paper usually reach more than 8+ pages. Especially when the font is Times 12 and double spaced.

In all, I think the exam itself will be a piece of cake. Rather than just having 50 long minutes to do 5 Calculus problems, I have two hours to finish it in time. Also with my history exams, in all it would take me a total of 2 hour to actually make an actual good essay and key term identifier. CPS, the exam is usually hard, so I could possible finish it in one hour of time. He makes it simple with many mix and match question, short answer, and a single program function to accomplish. English, as said above, I only have to write my essay and then when exam comes for the class, write about what I like about the class. It makes it much more simpler than I thought. And the two hours makes it more self-helping for me, myself.

What Makes Me, Me!

During my high school years, I hung out with a group I found unique and enjoyable to be around. Those typical people are the "geeks" from what I hear from many preps and jocks. But I guess it is better than having to wear brand clothes or be part of a sport to be wanted in a certain group. We were diverse, from different races to the clothes we wore, no one would even think otherwise. We never had to felt plastic because everything we do, we try to be ourselves without offending other people. I never had to force myself to wear high heels, make up, brand clothes, or put my hair a certain way. They were actually loud and obnoxious but I did not mind, because they were the only people who made me felt comfortable at Sheboygan North High School. However this group only had girls, and I did not grow up only with sisters or around girls.

My whole life, I spent most of the time with my brothers. I cannot partially blame them for why I became somewhat of a game-addict. When I wanted to build a snowman, play baseball, football, basketball, or video games, they had always agree to play with me. My typical clothing are somewhat boyish, but I try to look a little feminine to some extend, for example, I won't wear a dress pants to a formal dance. My brothers always stood up for me, along with my sisters, but I had always felt comfortable talking to my brothers. Now, I am trying to be dependent on myself, then depend on someone, because I know some day I will have to face this world alone.

I know it may seem weird, but I am a girl who hates doing chores and cooking. I was a "spoilt brat" at a young age, and refused to learn how to cook, but I could certainly clean. I just do not have the feel to clean anything if it is not necessary. The only thing I wanted was to advance in life, but to tell the truth, I think I need a break from school. I am not totally focused, especially when I am thinking only about Christmas and the one month break. 

In conclusion, many people say I am a shy and nice person ... that is totally the opposite. I can say I am somewhat shy, but I changed myself because an incident that happened during junior high. I could not trust anyone with the world I said, and it took me more than a year to find a group who make me feel comfortable. I don't really talk about my personal life because I don't want people to pity me. But the only person who actually knew what I was going through was my family and a close friend. And I would not say I am a nice person, I just do not want to show who I really am to them. I was somewhat a bully in elementary school and never wanted to be one again, I guess. 

There is so much more that makes me, but those are the only true reason why I am who I am. I would describe myself as self-center, selfish, game-addict, somewhat shy, and somewhat mean at some times. But it takes more than just a day to change someone, and if possible, I may never be able to change myself. I guess as one of my like-able song, Scars, sung by Papa Roach says, "And my scars remind me that the past is real." But now I am happier because I got rid of my worse four years.